4 - Unidentified dreams and passion
You know those nights when you feel so unimportant and worthless?
Monday, July 1, 2013
Sucks to say but this is the night.
Lately, my mum had been depressed and she had been putting off her anger at me. She's been giving me doubts about this one carnival me and my classmates will be working on. I feel like no one ever trusts my abilities. I feel so left out and alone to share my dreams. This carnival thing, it's more to business and I am pretty sure that my mum knows well that I am so into business. But when I talk her into it, she seems like she's unsure if it will work. She's making me feel twice and somehow lowering my expectations.
Sometimes I feel like only my grandpa supports me when it comes to business thing. Sometimes I feel like my parents won't listen, they just keep on talking and talking and talking and just forgets about me. And when I try to say something, they'll cut me off and continue with the talking. A part of me feels so unimportant and another part of me wanted to just run away and leave everything behind. If only I can just get away from this world and escape to paradise, just me. alone.
But the truth is; 1. I can't just run away 2. Because running away will only cause problem and 3. Life works this way, deal with it
I just hope that someday, my parents would listen and be calm whenever they want to discuss with me about something and would just accept the things I want it to be.
Someday. Yep.